First and foremost, entering into one makes your life, let me say, 'complex'. Nowadays, people are getting afraid, relatively, trauma and personal problems. One thing that I can also say is that you are already dealing with other people's lives; you are trying to please him or her, at the same time, you yourself are sacrificing all for the glory of love. Love is as complex as other problems posted. But, on the brighter side of life, you get to feel what others are feeling and that is, HAPPINESS. I can't really give a good definition of Happiness, all I can say is that Happiness is short lived.
How can I say happiness is short lived? Hmm, You wake up early in the morning, quite shaky feeling since you are being crushed by all the responsibilities and more. Instead of being happy because God gave you another day, you focus more on the things and events about to unfold. Quite sad, but that is the reality of most people. We get to be easily bothered by petty problems, make these big and even BIGGER and end up Ruining the lives and mornings of the people around you. HOw much more when your boyfriend and girlfriend communicates with you and demands quality time with you? how would you handle all these pressures?
I just had a short chit chat with my old friend hours ago and she was the one who drove me to write something about this. She actually didn't tell me to post something like this, but I just wanted to write something about relationships and its cronies. She had her set of problems too just like me. At one point in our conversation, she mentioned something about her relationship with her boyfriend who was immature.
It was that friend of mine who informed me about being able to decide well if we are at least 25 years old; this age as well would be good for marriage. Going to her world, for me, immaturity is a part of being human. It is simply a part of growing up. What makes it hard to deal with that kind of relationship would be a clash of expectations; we can't blame ourselves for this. You, me and them, at an age of 21, it is more or less expected for 'US' (I assume my readers are of my age and beyond) to act maturely and decide well for life. Expectations. I surely would love to list all my expectations here, but, based from a rough road towards being 21 years of age, I learned never to expect much; it just leaves a mark of frustration, or maybe a scar of failure.
I admit, what makes me hard to deal with people, and especially, with myself is my level of immaturity and understanding people's emotions. It's quite ugly if I just state my opinion, now I am placing a touch of me in this blog topic which is about relationships. Relationship with myself, with people, with my friends (they're of course, people, Homo sapiens) and the significant 'others' of my world are just some.
There is really no point hiding the truth. It is like hiding from God, where in fact, he knows where we are hiding. By being straight to the point, I am still immature. I am already 21 years of age, I even look even older than my age, but my maturity is way below 21 years of age. My UP life is the best but, every year seems more and more intriguing. I have a bigger room getting occupied year by year by information from engineering stuffs. My question goes simply like this, why do I feel like I am still the cute boy back in his elementary years who just studies to please his parents? I don't understand.
Going back to dealing relationships, it does seem intriguing but it is a common query in my age whether I have a girlfriend or NONE at all. People doubt. Here and there, their questions just remain the same, it is as if the calendar days don't seem to move an inch in their dimension. For me, it is okay. Really, it is just okay. Not just in love,but also in friendship, I feel a bit of pain when people go through the Berlin wall and trespass for private information. This was our topic hours ago, and guess what I answered my friend? I just told her, I cannot even deal with my own immaturity, in short, I cannot even make sound decisions and deal with myself, how much more placing myself in DEALING with other people other than me?
Glad to say, she understood. But how about those other significant people around whose questions remain constant for every time we see our faces? Can I still use this same truth I told her? Probably, yes, and even more probable, I just say, I focus more on enriching knowledge, or maybe, I am focusing in enriching myself with love. It is as if I am having a monologue here, but the richest answer I can convince myself would be, LOVING myself more. Having a good deal of relationship, not just with lovers and friends, is hard. One cannot have a good relationship if you yourself are afraid to share whatever you have--LOVE. Love is shared and Love would mean understanding, being thoughtful and being kind. Can you really share love if you yourself don't have that, LOVE?
It is a matter of choice. Life itself. It is hard to define things. Relationships, here and there, all of these matter if you yourself know the value of love and friendship; of what is genuine truth and understanding; of what is being mature and being responsible. All these, I am thankful to my creator for what I am now. for now, I maybe like this, but time will come, I would be somebody my creator, family and friends, be proud of. Somebody wise, and even good in making decisions which glorify God and not the people around me.
